it’s so exhausting being alive when even the simplest things feel like a chore. doing literally anything takes so much energy and i don’t even understand why. every day feels the same and I’m so fucking tired. i just want everything to stop for a while
it’s actually painful being aware of your toxic patterns because you can’t even pretend you don’t know better anymore. you see yourself doing the same shit and just sit there wondering why you’re like this
i wish i could get out of my own head for once because what the fuck is actually going on in there. i make myself miserable over things i don’t even know how to explain
i forgot that making art is fun. for the longest time i’ve considered it to be hard and stressful. it’s actually supposed to be fun though, i was doing it wrong