ftlsid
@ftlsid

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basically everyone is confused about whether they’re trying to obtain an outcome in the real world, or whether they’re just trying to feel better in a roundabout way
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if you’re trying to control the outcome in the real world, then some of those reactions make sense, but not most of them
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when something goes wrong adults will start figuring out who’s at fault, whether they made a mistake, how to prevent it from happening again, what it means about them, what other people will think. a child will just cry
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if you can experience grief without resisting it, you get to keep your innocence
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I finally watched the AlphaGo documentary. more than anything else I came away with a deep respect for Lee Sedol
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What really stuck with me is how, at the end, he says that he is glad that he learned to play Go and is grateful for what it has taught him
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I think what matters in life is not really goals, skill, or even effort, but the patience and attentiveness that allows the world to surprise you
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in order to have an emotional need involving another person, you first have to construct a simulacrum of them in your mind, and then establish a relationship between the simulacrum and your conscious self, and then come to believe that your safety or identity or w/e depends on properties of this simulated internal relationship. almost everyone does this in a fraction of a second upon meeting a new person, which is why the concept of "emotional needs" has been reified as if they are the same kind of thing as hunger
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the idea that you have emotional needs is based on a misunderstanding about how the mind's representations works. this is unpopular because it sounds "unhealthy" etc but all the best stuff is on the other side of understanding this
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this all sounds so esoteric that I feel like a nutjob writing it down but noticing and dissolving these simulacra is literally the most important thing for improving well-being that I've found
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it frustrates me endlessly that people who undertakes spiritual practice tend to stop at "let's feel our feelings and accept them" and never get to "let's dismantle the illusions that generate bad feelings and cease to have them entirely"
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when you go deep into this process, no event really perturbs you anymore. the future is something to be curious about rather than something to be feared or controlled. the whole thing turns into a playground, because the emotional stakes are gone
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all that remains of what people call "emotions" are these little blips that are more like minor course corrections than identifiable feelings. it's hard to even name them. just like, do this, that's interesting, go over there, horny, hungry, etc
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It works pretty well but I felt so wired afterwards
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I started running with these firefighter trainees and one of them motivates himself by playing siren noises on his phone instead of listening to music
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at a certain stage of seeing emptiness it becomes obvious that protecting or saving something that is threatened is equivalent to thoroughly grieving it, because at the end of the process you're not experiencing loss
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this is very important because you start to see that the only possible objects of desire are emotional transformations, which are not intrinsically associated with real-world conditions
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this doesn't necessarily require you to disavow the existence of the external world, but it does permit you to become more independent of it
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